If nothing goes right

Something doesn't go right!

I knew it, but what the hell is that?!

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?

You build up hope of failures all you've known

Remember all the sadness and frustration

And let it go

Well, I have nightmare for the last three days. The first was about a giant polar bear stalking me, even to the ledge of a building. I woke up just in time when his teeth almost tear my feet. Second nightmare was moving into a small house that has well fire in the back yard. I woke up when a burst of incandescent fire from the well jumps into dark sky, wonderful but creepy.

And last night I dream of being transferred into another state as pointed by my boss! (Oh no, not again!). All I remember when I woke up this morning was the feeling of incredibly tiredness! Tired of start everything all over again! You know the feeling of doing something a must but you don’t even intend to do. Just kind of awkward feeling on the first day in school or first day at work, as far as I remember! It’s a weird uncomfortable feeling. It’s okay but not enjoyable.

Yep, everything doesn't go right as I expect, at least in term of time frame. I got stuck too long in the manuscript I'v been working on! This work keeps me in a loop for almost the last four months. I'm (damn) tired of it! But hell ya, what I can do about it?!

Better I take this advice and move along. Now I’m trying to reconcile myself; not finding what wasn't right but how to get it done!

Apparently the battle has not yet even closes to the end. Well, I’m okay with it, only need time to get myself ready.
yeah yeah, I'll take your words.

Remember all the sadness and frustration

And let it go